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lips, I was gone, fucking him as fast and hard as I could as my
orgasm shook my entire body.
Breathless, I collapsed over him. For a long moment, I couldn t
even move, but when I did, we both shivered as I pulled out. I took
care of the condom while Zander wiped the semen off his stomach
with a couple of tissues.
Then we sank back onto his bed. He wrapped his arms around
me, and as I rested my head on his chest, he gently combed his
fingers through my hair.
We ll keep this quiet, he murmured, pausing to press a kiss
onto the top of my head, but goddamn, I don t want to stop doing
it.
I just smiled and didn t say a word.
* * *
For four straight nights we fucked in secret, and no one was the
wiser. I d wait until the guys on the bus were asleep or passed out,
then slip out and onto Zander s bus. Then I d make sure I was
awake and back where I belonged before everyone else started
coming around.
The fourth morning, though, we slept later than we d intended.
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Either the alarm on my cell phone hadn t gone off, or I d
accidentally shut it off instead of hitting the snooze button.
Whatever the case, we d woken up at nearly ten-thirty, killing any
chances I had of slipping out of his bus and back to the crew bus
before everyone else started waking up.
And as I stepped off the bus behind him, Zander looked to his
left and groaned. Oh, shit.
I turned and very nearly groaned myself.
Rick folded his arms. Good morning, gentlemen.
I cringed. I was so fired.
Have a good night, you two? Rick asked through clenched
teeth.
That s none of your business, Zander retorted.
Rick raised an eyebrow.
I cleared my throat. Look, we re
Zander put his arm around my waist, and he pulled me toward
him.
So much for keeping this quiet.
Yeah. Definitely fired.
There. Zander glared at Rick. Now you know. Adapt.
Rick s glare slid toward me. What the actual fuck do you
think you re doing, Reese? I hired you to
This has nothing to do with his job, Zander snapped. It has
nothing to do with you, either.
Nothing to do with me? Rick laughed dryly. My guitar tech
is fucking my ex-boyfriend and bandmate. I can t exactly get away
from either of you, can I?
And that s not what s got you pissed off, Zander said.
You d find a reason to be just as pissed no matter who I was
seeing.
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That s bullshit. I mean, come on, Zan. Rick threw up his
hands. Being in the same band after we split up is hard enough
without you sticking your dick in the roadies.
So what? Am I not allowed to move on? Zander took his arm
off my waist and stepped toward Rick. Look, things are over
between us, and they need to stay that way. And I don t know
about you, but I need to move on. He glanced back at me, and his
smile was both genuine and weak. Facing Rick again, he added,
And I want to be with Brad.
Rick s eyes flicked back and forth between us. Then he shook
his head and sighed heavily. Do what you want. With that, he
brushed past me and stormed off.
Silently, we both watched him go.
Then Zander shook his head. Fuck. His shoulders slumped.
This is just what the band needs.
I cringed. Sorry.
It s not your fault.
I swallowed. But maybe this isn t such a good idea.
His eyes widened. What?
We both knew it would piss Rick off if he found out, and now
he s going to make your and the band s life hell.
Zander reached for me, but I put a hand on his chest. I swore I
could feel his heart drop as he said, Brad&
I don t want to do this if it s going to damage the band.
But& we
Don t, I whispered. You need the band. I need this job. We
all have to be on the road together for the several months. We
can t& we can t do this if it s going to make things rough between
you and the band.
He ll get over it, Zander said, clasping my hand. He ll
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adapt.
We both know he won t. Not without dragging down your
morale and everyone else s.
Zander s eyebrows rose.
I managed a soft, humorless laugh. Everyone knows what he s
like, Zander. We all know what a volatile jackass he is, and that
he s got you and everyone else in the band walking on eggshells
because he knows, and we know, and you know that you guys need
him.
Zander s lips parted. He took a breath like he was starting to
speak, but when I gently freed my hand and took a step back, he
just stared at me, probably as disbelieving as I was that this was
happening.
I m sorry, I whispered. I want this, but we both know it s
just not a good idea. Not now.
He lowered his gaze, but didn t protest. I didn t know if I
hoped he would, or if I was glad he didn t, but whatever the case,
he stayed silent.
I had no idea what to think. I had no idea if I was still
employed.
I was only sure of one thing just then&
Walking away from Zander was one of the hardest things I d
ever done in my life.
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CHAPTER 10
Zander Lynch
All day long, I was completely numb. Brad had been in my
arms, and then he was gone. Still around we were, as he d
jokingly pointed out last night, touring together but miles away.
He avoided my eyes. I chanced a look at him whenever I thought
his back was turned, and damn it, my chest shouldn t have ached
this much for someone after a few nights of nothing but scorching
hot sex.
Right. Because that was all it was.
I surreptitiously watched him setting up Rick s gear for the
show, and my thoughts drifted back to last night in the back of my
tour bus. The sheets and comforter were in a rumpled heap on the
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floor along with our clothes. Brad was on his side, head propped
up and elbow on the pillow next to me, sweat still gleaming along
his hairline. Though that night s show had worn me down more
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